Sitting in a Tim Hortons’s, delaying the beginning of my work day, in order to pray and seek God about some big decisions to come about and I am doing the most faithless thing.
I am hoping that these nice older ladies sitting beside me will ask me what I am doing, say that they love God too and offer me thousands of dollars and resources in order to fix my problem.
I have to say, I personally laughed at that last line too. And I hope you did, cause this is not uncommon for any of us who claim to have faith in God. We believe that God has his best lined up for us and if we really had faith we wouldn’t have to go through any suffering to get it. There are always nice old ladies with lots of money ready to give you money for your good work you are doing for Jesus right!?!?
However I am in a dilemma. And I know that I can’t rely on some chance situation to fix it all. I have to believe that God wants to work with the person He created and the creation around Him, to see that life take care of itself. People working together under God to mend relationships in the world…that is powerful.
I know what is right. And what is right is not always popular. And if it’s unpopular you might lose friends, standing, pride…numbers.
My life needs to be about justice…and my church as well.
Tags: church life decisions
January 30, 2008 at 9:21 pm
Thanks for sharing this with the IIB crowd. This is just plain honest. I don’t know any church starters that don’t struggle with this, and the temptation to sell out for security or give in to wishful thinking is always there. I’m still sure that God does want to do some great stuff with you in Van. He didn’t send you there for nothin’. Keep the faith, buddy.